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12 May 2010

new update

My life really in chaos this few week since 2 of my family members are sick.but i would like to tell you guys about other things...about what hapen to my life now...i dont want to talk about my family members whom are sick or i will cry all night long again...

two weeks ago...the night after my paper finshed..i have a huge fight with my boyfriend...after past 2 year i been friend with him and lastly becoming his official girlfriend...i never felt that devastated and angry even though we do argue a lot....this is because of his stupid decision for not telling me what is his job...

He and i are same age...both of us born 1989....first time i have boyfriend same age with me...When we first know each other, i know he didn't continue his study he just finished form 5.. and he just stay at home with no job...but i didnt judge him and i dont really care...then after 1 year and half he proposed me to be his girlfriend...at first i said no..i told him...im not beautiful and im fat...didnt he felt ashamed with my experience...that he answer me with a question...do you like me? and honestly i did love him that moment...than he ask me...

"why you love me since , dont have a handsome look, my education is just until form 5 and lastly i dunt have permanent job"

He really locked my mouth with that questioned...Then i slowly answered i guess all is matter is our personality and our heart...Kindda weird at first...from friend to lover...but after for few months we broke up because im too busy with my study...he really heart broken but he understand...And now we coming back together...for 2 months now...Last 2 week we have a huge fight...he did realize he hurt me so much since i said...i look stupid and bad girlfriend for not knowing my own boyfriend job...he said he ashamed and afraid i would be ashamed to have him as my boyfriend. I told him...i love him because of how he treat me and how he acct when around me...not bacouse of his money or look or what so ever..i hung up on his call...after 2 hours i raceived a message from him..he apologize and lastly telling me what is his job really is.

Actually he work as a waiter in a restaurant in one of the hotel in tourism area at Malacca. I didnt reply because i still felt so sad for what he had done...until next day i apologize for my attitude and i told him i love him...since then...we just fine and i can felt we really deeply in love and happy to be each other...we havent fight for 2 weeks straight...i thing this is the longest period we in peace and good relationship...normally we always argue once a week...Since the big fight between us he promised me no more secret between us...and i just believe him even i doubt that since he said he want to mysterious man when we first met and even now often.

Im so happy now and he always contact me everyday though wee was so busy with his job just to make sure im alright and keep going strong from day to day since my grandma(my dad's mom) and my grandpa (my mom's dad) is sick and cannot move at all...im really sad but every single his message and attention to me really make me happy...