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20 July 2010

Have new responsibility

Hi guys...todays been a very long and tiring day...but its normal as a student.Yesterday i got unexpected message from unknown number.She ask weather i am Melin or not...she said that i got the job that i apply last semester...to be a writer for college bulletin. I'm shocked...i thought i dont get it since to news since few months ago.She said it was confirmed and she had send my name to the College's Principal for confirmation of my status...Seriusly im happy but im shocked...

I already get used to this since i was high school..but...it just...its been a few year since i stopped to write.Well blogging all i have for now...I dont have enough time...since one short story i need approx 3 hour...and novels...i need months...research some more...i just dont have the time...or should i say...i actually dont have the passion in writing anymore...maybe time changing...

I had been given first assignment...that was tomorrow night event...First event for the new semester....A night with Junior and Senior...i need to write documentation bout it.....Well...i just check Sakura Website...im just devastated...last entry was February, 15...

Then, at some point im worried that i cant do my job...so many things going on my life now...im so afraid that i cant fulfill my duty.Please pray for me that i can do all my responsibility...See u next time...take care

17 July 2010

old = beautiful

Hi guys....how are u doing...erm...now 1:14 am...i suppose in bed right now...but unfortunately...i cant sleep...i dont know why.... Erm...old equal to beautiful....dont u think its weird...okay i dont say above 80 old...i mean 40 above old...

Its get me thinking recently...its really good doesnt it....ok...try google Kimora Lee Simmons, Brad Pit, Angelina Jolie, David Beckham and who ever superstar u like when they were younger...Im not saying they are ugly when they were young...it just...they not pretty or good looking as they are now...and i can say they look weird when they were much younger... I admirer their look now...so beautiful...handsome...good looking...

I was thinking...will i be like them when im older....i mean become more beautiful...i really hoping that i will...hehehe....its funny...but i think everyone want to do the same...want to look beautiful always...even they were older...dont you??? Yes u are!!!

One more thing...i just realize...past few months...my traffic rate...which i mean my blog visitor getting higher...just yesterday...i have 45 visitor...and they from around the world...im so bless and happy...Im happy because people reading my blog...Thank you guys....and I LOVE YOU ALL

14 July 2010

Behavior

Hi guys....Recently…I keep thinking about human behavior..Human is really unique…Unfortunately my term of unique is WEIRD!!!! I just don’t know…maybe some of u might have a same thought or maybe saying... “This bitch crazy or what…she a human being also…”…And as usual….what the hell I care…you can say whatever you want…I will be ok with it…I guess….Urghhh….im so hypocrite…I cant help it…..

Back to the topic please!!..hehe..well why I said human is unique…Urghhh just said weird… I really don’t understand why a decent girl (once) wanna become a slut..yeah…let me spell it to you…S.L.U.T…SLUT…I know it’s a harsh word…but that’s the only word that I can think of….Well…I know a girl…her look very decent…and in fact she was….but I really don’t know what happen to her…until she just turn to slut and bitch….Well…to be honest…I know she still decent because in front of me and others…she speak nicely with lower tone and smile sweetly oftenly…but when she with her girlfriends…she become whole new person…cursing is her language….dirty words is her grammar…and sexual body language is her attitude… I really cant understand…what the hell happen..which is the true her now…a sweet young girl or…slut….

Seriusly im confused with her….but I dunno how to advise her….Actually I pity her parents since she is the only daughter….Her dad is very influence people in business and her mom is church person…but then…their only daughter…their only hope….
Can someone explain to me why this happen…is her seek for attention??

Speak about attention….another one behavior that I really don’t like and sadly I confess..sometime I do it without I realize….What I mean is the behavior of people that do weird or loud sound with attention to attract people attention to her or him…Urgh…why cant we just become invisible…isn’t that easier….

I guess its nature human want some attention…but to me…yes it works but it will annoy people also…believe me…I’ve been with this kind of person for 1 whole semester…and look like im gonna spend whole semester with her again….Urgh….its like hell….

12 July 2010

New Semester started

Today is the first day for new semester...I cant believed it...im third year...Gosh i never think about it...well...i thought once long time ago...i cant make it..but im wrong...i just need to work harder to prove to my family and my friends that i can do it...Civil engineering really not easy..but like it or not...i have to do my best....

Today class suppose to start at 8 am...so i woke up 6:30 and get myself ready by 7:30 since my class will be at Central Teaching Facilities 2 which is take about 15-20 minutes by foot...its really a long walk...but i even lazy to wait for bus and go there...Its ok i guess..morning exercise..hehe...Unfortunately half hour of waiting just went to waste because the lecturer last minute cancelling the class and change it to 12 pm....Im disappointed since it is kindda hot and it is a long walk...but then i just went to the faculty and copy a schedule from first year and second year student since im going to repeat some papers..Its really chaotic in the office...Everyone with their on business at the counter. Fortunately i get through and manage to register a subject that has a limited place...thats good for me...Well im going to apply extra credit hour which need me to ask approve and permission...which it has not finish and settle until now since the person in charge is hard to find...i cant find her anywhere...i guess im going to try my luck again after this...

I just hope for this semester...i can do it...

11 July 2010

New Update - Lifes never get easier

Hi guys...its really been a very long time since my last update...It just thing went so damn crazy this few month...Im so sorry for not updating my blog...It just myself break apart. I need times to put it together and live my life as usual.

Actually....this semester break..i lost 2 person that i love most in the world...My grandparents(my dad's mom and my mom's dad)....Since the holiday started and in fact since i arrive hometown from the airport... i've been spending my time taking good care of my grandma...im tired and i felt horrible but for the sake of my grandma and my grandpa, i force myself. They took good care of me once when im little girl...and now...its my time to pay them.

My grandma passed away 12 may 2010..sharp 6:40 pm...if u realize..it just few hour after my last update...that time she was sleeping....and i felt tired...in order to make sure i stayed awake i went to online and updating some post...Who ever knew...just few hours...everything get chaotic...Its hard to imagine...

Then just 38 days after my grandma passed away...my grandpa passed away...on 18 june 2010 sharp on 6:45 pm....and...IT IS MY BIRTHDAY!!! God....my heart break when i saw 18 june written in my grandpa death cert' as his DOD.Swear to God...i wont celebrating that day anymore...

My life never be easy...but lost 2 people that i love...in just short time...im going to be crazy...New semester will start tomorrow...I hope there is light that will guide me...and there is hand will hold me tight and wont let it go no matter what...I just need it...now...is easy for me to fall apart...