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14 July 2011

Human Being is Hard to predict

Morning world…hopefully u guys have a nice breakfast and have plan for today.. Right now im at the office…apparently nothing to do much…actually my internship will be done Friday next week…and today is Thursdays so it is around the corner… Im happy but im bit sad too…coz there are a lot of things I learned since im here. Even though im young and inexperienced, they treat me very well and teach me a lot of things non-stop.

This morning, I went to the lab and they left without bring me along again!! To be honest im hurt. Its been like this for a while…they don’t even tell me where are they going like they did before where they are telling me everywhere they were brought and invited me along…im not blaming the lab’s staff…but I meant the other trainee that had been with me for the last 2 month… I dunt understand why they should act like that. I know they are in love…we all understand that okay…but why they should act like that…everywhere I went, im sure to call them and let them know…if wanna join…but them?? They just wanna do it alone or should I say a couple. Yes I admit im in the office nearly 8 hours each days and rarely went down to the lab already but it it doesn’t mean i’m not interested to do any work. Yes im not interested to do repeated work coz there are no use for my report or log book. We are not allowed to report repeated work. So I rather to be in the office doing my final report coz just few days left…

They are way older than me but they acted like a little kid…not just they hurting my feeling but others too… sometimes I wish I didn’t know them at all and just let me alone having internship here. Even my supervisor said, they changed a lot, not the same person she knows before…. Human being is hard to predict. I just cant wait to finish my internship and have a nice and peaceful holidays….

07 July 2011

Im coming back + Experince meeting people

WOW!!...its been a 3 months i think i didnt post any entry and updating about everything... My life being so hard after i my grandma and grandpa passed away years ago... My responsibilities on my shoulder are getting heavier and sometimes i think i dont have any strength to continue walking in the path...Sometimes i found myself lost in the middle of something...sometime i dont know what the heck im doing...Its so miserable. As lo of u knows....2 years ago im having problem with schools...my pointer drop a lot...nearly cause me kicked out from the university... now im glad coz after trying, my results are getting better and recent result was ok...no subject fail...im happy for sure...

Now im doing my internship at Jabatan Kerja Raya (JKR) or Publics work Department as Trainee Engineer... Im having fun here at first but now the condition changed...I dont know where i did wrong...maybe its me did wrong without i realizing it...well im just normal human being...i have to admit it...There are 4 of us having our internship here...3 girls and a guy...3 of us including the guy are civil engineer and the other girl is mechanical engineer. We have a superb relationship at first coz even though we just know each other, we acted like we know each other for years... Until one day God decide to let 2 of my civil friend fall in love... Even though we were not told about the relationship but we can see through it and even our supervisor sense something. On the other hand, i have a fight with the guy...ive been patience since first day i met him but i guess one day i just explode because i really hate people blaming me for something i didnt do especially when its regarding silly stuff... if u like people to treat u free lunch...its really up u want to join it or now, why u have to stay like i did and refuse the offer even i didnt ask him to...i dont really like to eat free stuff coz for me, the money was from their hardwork...i dont want to waste it even they want to spend it on me freely.

Now, me and the guy just perfectly fine...coz to me...personal matter cannot be mixed with work and im sure he think the same way and whats really nice now....before saying or doing something regarding me, he will think first, maybe afraid hurting me again or maybe afraid i become a monster for second time...^_^... but seems the girl now having a problem with me, i dont know if it was me misunderstood to the way she act... but im just hoping everything are actually fine between and im just misunderstood what she meant of doing...

While having my internship here, i learn a lot for being professional in handling matter and my personal stuff to ensure my life will not turn upside down....I admit, it was not successfully done but im trying my hard. I try to be energetic and always following all the orders given even though im having a problem with my old injured. My ankle are killing me...the pain are coming back more frequently....im really worried about it...my sister advise me to see a doctor to see what actually happen but i object coz i afraid the possibility of surgery. Maybe someday after i finished my internship i'll go see doctor and have a medical check up.

Im hoping i can post new entries soon....see u guys very soon and love u all...Muacks...

24 March 2011

Update after A long Time

Hai guys....miss all of u....ive received few comments and message that asking me to write another entry....Im really sorry guys for disappointing u.....my life is not that easy for the past few month....ive receiving a lot of criticism....

When u become a good kid.....but still people nagging at u about that...about that....you will start to act like bad kid....to protest....thats what im being doing...and my life really rough...friends that i called my family....never really my family.....there so many things happen around them and when i try correct them in really well mannered....its never work....and when i try to correct them in harsh way.....and now im the bad guy.....that i was the person that let others to learn about the problem that been happening in the organization....When they will realized that they are the reason.....people been talking behind them for almost 3 years...in front of me coz they never thought i'am part of the organization......i really cant handle it any more...the best i can do....just accept it like its really fully my fault.....that im the one that mad for power.....i just need to crush my own dignity for everyone good....im too tired too fight...way too tired....

Ive been thinking.....maybe im closing this blog since its hard for me to update......i dunt have the idea....fresh idea to write.....im in writer's block state now....

Love from me...
mel